UnEmployable

I seriously do not understand why it is so hard to get a job in a library. When I graduated from library school is took me eight months to find a job here in Charlotte. Now that I am moving away the opposite is happening, there are tons of jobs open here for all types of library and information services work, and where we've move to is like a library desert. I have search for jobs every single day it seems since J accepted the position at WCU back in October. I have applied for every single job in a hour radius of our new place, I've had three interviews, two with the same library system and nothing has worked out. I keep telling myself it is because of my excellent qualifications or maybe because my pay here in Charlotte is so good...but I think I've been kidding myself. The library system I've interviewed with twice wants me to apply for another position they are posting soon, but it seems like a waste of time. If they wanted me they would have hired me already...right? On another less depressing note, practice on Monday went well. I'm sore as hell but it felt good to be back on wheels. I'm dying to go tonight but I've been up since 5am and I don't know if I can hack staying out till 10pm tonight since I have a full day tomorrow, luckily four hours out of tomorrow are a much needed spa day gift. I am trying so hard to keep it together. I'm home all weekend this weekend since J is speaking at a conference in New Orleans so I'm hoping to spend a ton of time with friends while I'm here. Here is hoping for good news. Until next time.

I'm hoping life will feel better with eight wheels.

I am at an interesting crossroads. I am splitting my time between my new home and my mother's house. I have yet to be able to attend a practice with my what I hope will be my new team the Blue Ridge Roller Girls. Tonight practice resumes with the Charlotte Roller Girls and technically I have retired. I am currently working 11 hour days and running errands on the my lunch break. I have decided to lengthen my day considerably by going to practice tonight until 9:30 meaning I will have been going nonstop since 7:30 this morning - whoo hoo 14 hour days! I am hoping getting back on skates will return some sense of normalcy to my crazy life. It will feel good to skate our some of my frustration. I still haven't heard from the job I interviewed for on the 2nd, they said they would try to make a decision by last Friday which they have not. I'm so ready to have a life in a single house hold and not be forced to split my time between two cities that aren't exactly close to one an other. So with all that said as tired as I'm going to be by the time I get off work, but knowing that I get skate tonight is at least making the day go by faster and giving me something to look forward too. Here is hoping I can make it through the day!

I just want to hit someone.

I want to hurry up and find a job so I can hurry up and get on a derby team and start working out my frustrations. My husband and I have this beautiful condo in Lake Junaluska and I'm stuck here in Charlotte living with my mom. No offense to her, but I'm almost 30 years old and I'm married it is super depressing to live this way. My husband gets to enjoy our new place, and start his dream job where I'm trapped in a nightmare. I work 4 days a week for 11 hours just to have an extra day to spend with him. I'm paying for rent and groceries for a place I spent 10 days a month at. I've applied for countless jobs and only heard from two of them, which I've interviewed for and didn't get and was then offer another position through one of the same counties and they said they would get back to be by Tuesday evening and its now Wednesday afternoon which leads me to believe that I didn't get the job. I still haven't heard from the second job I applied for in Asheville and I'm starting to lose hope. I have applied for every job that is out that way and nothing has come to fruition. I miss my husband, and a bed of my own. I just want a normal life, rather than a fractured one that happens in two places. I am trying not to burst into tears as I continue to will my phone to ring. I really, truly hate this.