Trying to keep the faith

     So fast forward from all the sparing posts in my past to my current situation. I got married on August 31st, 2014, I'm now a step mom of an adorable five year old boy, I am working as a children's librarian at a library a mere five miles from my house. I've been playing roller derby with the Charlotte Roller Girls for almost seven years now. My husband and I have a perfect little townhouse in Dilworth that allows us to walk to all kinds of restaurants, bars, and two parks. My little corgi is still little and as happy as can be, and so am I.
     Two weeks ago my husband interviewed for his dream job at Western Carolina University and less than two days later he was offered the position. Now we have to pack up and head on to greener pastures...well greener for one of us. There are no librarian jobs in western, NC. Like none, as in zero. So until I can find something, anything, we are doomed to living in Spartanburg, SC and both of us commuting to our respective jobs. Both are long commutes, his double in length to mine but there isn't really much we can do about it. I can't not work, and he can't not accept this one in a life time job.
     I swear that I am trying to be and stay positive, but I am overwhelmed with fear and negative feelings of hopelessness. What if I never find a job, more terrifying is never finding a job I enjoy as much as the one I have now. I don't want to take a massive pay cut but I know it is in my future if I want any hope of continuing to be a children's librarian. But as of this moment I feel like there is no hope since there are absolutely no jobs. I just wish I could find a job, we could move to Asheville like we always planned and get on to the living happily ever part. No such luck...at least not for now.